NEVER TO RETURN

I saw you leave.

Your eyes fixed on me

But unseeing, glazed.

You left without a word,

Without a backward glance;

At the misery you left behind,

At the sickness you had inflicted on my very soul,

The desolate isolation that encompassed me

When I saw you go  — forever.

 

I can travel on this path no more.

I just stand where you left me last.

I’ve lost my laughter,

I’ve lost all hope,

My life, my destiny too!

You have snatched them away,

Your gifts as they were.

 

I have nothing now.

My hands are empty.

The only thing there is,

Is a silence – deep and engulfing,

Which gnaws at my heart.

 

Yet ………. yet………

Why does my soul cry out for you?

Why do I search for your nonexistent footprint?

Why does my whole being crave for you?

Why do I wait through life and death to meet you?

Why … .oh why do I believe

You’ll come back to me at last?!

When I know, I’ve seen you go

Never to return!

Yes, never to return.